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One word: Why?
Why are people so fake?
I'm not saying I'm not because I'll admit it: I have really fake moments. Like when my mother holds up that hideous shirt and I'm like ... PUKE. But I'll tell her it's nice anyways.
But I mean... People are supposed to be my friends, and be supportive. They're supposed to make me not feel stupid about my good decisions, and not make me regret anything. Not that I feel stupid or regret anything. But that's besides the point.
I tell my friends what, to me, was good news. And I got pretty much the same result: What?!
The only person I was happy with was Dev, cause he was just calm, and he understands about it. I mean, some of my friends were like "that's stupid" or something along those lines. Though, I don't mind Hans's "just don't die" thing. But sometimes, just saying "that's cool" would be so much better.
Another why.
Why can't people be there for me whenever I need them?
I mean, sometimes I just have one specific person I want to talk to, but why is it that whoever I want to talk to is never around? It's such freaking bullshit, I tell you. Of course, most people are sleeping now, but that's besides the point.
You know, on a complete random note, I miss old times. Not just back when I was little and nothing mattered. But like... You know how when you first meet someone, and you're talking a lot, and really getting to know each other?
That's what I miss with almost all of my friends. Just being able to talk about whatever and even if we did get offended, we'd not care because the other person was just that cool we didn't want to piss them off. But now... It's like we freaking try to annoy each other and piss each other off or just plain avoid each other.
I also miss how things are right after the first time you tell someone you love them. Like, the very first time that it's ever mentioned, and at first you're having a heart attack, because you've never said it - in any form. But then... You just say it. And you're happy because you realize it's true.
I don't even know any more. I just... I miss him. And the sad part is, I don't think he even knows it.
numbI'm not saying I'm not because I'll admit it: I have really fake moments. Like when my mother holds up that hideous shirt and I'm like ... PUKE. But I'll tell her it's nice anyways.
But I mean... People are supposed to be my friends, and be supportive. They're supposed to make me not feel stupid about my good decisions, and not make me regret anything. Not that I feel stupid or regret anything. But that's besides the point.
I tell my friends what, to me, was good news. And I got pretty much the same result: What?!
The only person I was happy with was Dev, cause he was just calm, and he understands about it. I mean, some of my friends were like "that's stupid" or something along those lines. Though, I don't mind Hans's "just don't die" thing. But sometimes, just saying "that's cool" would be so much better.
Another why.
Why can't people be there for me whenever I need them?
I mean, sometimes I just have one specific person I want to talk to, but why is it that whoever I want to talk to is never around? It's such freaking bullshit, I tell you. Of course, most people are sleeping now, but that's besides the point.
You know, on a complete random note, I miss old times. Not just back when I was little and nothing mattered. But like... You know how when you first meet someone, and you're talking a lot, and really getting to know each other?
That's what I miss with almost all of my friends. Just being able to talk about whatever and even if we did get offended, we'd not care because the other person was just that cool we didn't want to piss them off. But now... It's like we freaking try to annoy each other and piss each other off or just plain avoid each other.
I also miss how things are right after the first time you tell someone you love them. Like, the very first time that it's ever mentioned, and at first you're having a heart attack, because you've never said it - in any form. But then... You just say it. And you're happy because you realize it's true.
I don't even know any more. I just... I miss him. And the sad part is, I don't think he even knows it.
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